Prom Preparing

So I got my ear pierced finally and the lady at walmart gave me the wrong fucking earring. When she realized her mistake i got the set I wanted free :) so I feel good. I got my dress, shoes, make up, and gloves. All I need is Black lace leggings (i can't find any in this tiny town they've no fashion sense here), jewelry and a choker(or dog collar) and fingerless gloves. then I will be set. All the other girls at school keep complaining about how their boyfriends picked the wrong color, how their suits won't match their dresses. They make me so angry I wish they would just be ,happy that they have some one to go with cause there are some girls who don't want to go to prom cause they have no date. I say "Who needs a date, just go alone and have fun, you won't have to worry about if your date is having fun or whatever, have fun be yourself and maybe you'll find some one else who went alone and hang with them. Just have fun" Hell I'm going to prom alone and I'm loving it. Its going to be the best night of my life. well second best if it doesn't top the time I became 18 and had a bondage theme for my birthday good times good times

Life Sucks

Well my life really sucks right now. I started to write a story and then deleted cause i thought it wasbased too much on V FOR VEDATTA. Great movie I love it. But anyways Beside turning down guys lately and having my ex nag me for money and spring break being awesome, life has pretty much sucked ass.

Amelia OUT...

Shiny and New

sorry I haven't been on lately I haven't been to school for like a whole week..... Weird thing I don't get is that my mum bought me a Laptop..... What happpened to punishing your child when they did something wrong

But I'm not complaining I've been up all night playing Sims 3. It's soooo addicting I don't want to sleep much let do anything else.... I don't even look at my phone anymore when it chimes or rings

Dressed Like Acid

Today I dressed like I was on an acid trip.
What I'm wearing From Bottom to Top...
1) Flip flops
2) Zebra Print Flower Lace Leggings
3) Red and Black Frilled Skirt
4) White Shirt that has a neon yellow,neon pink,neon blue, neon purple ice cream
5) extra large Elite jacket
6) Nike beanie
7) Black Elite beanie
(Yes I'm weearing a hat on a hat)

So yeah add to the fact that im tired, cranky and want to yell, scream and pull my hair out, I think I just want to go home. I'm so tired my fingers don't want to type. Thats how tired I am. I could literally just pass out. If only I hadn't stayed the night at Lilly's I could have stayed home in bed and I wouldn't have gotten up at 5:30 this morning, I'd have stayed in bed till passed noon wrapped tight in my blankets where the sun could not reach. I'm going to end up throwing a hissy fit I can feel it in the air. What makes I worse I that I don't have any of my school work... It's all at home in my binder under my back pack on my bed waiting for me not to do it. Yep I'm so going to sleep today weather the teachers like it or not.

Amelia OUT...

Sims 3

I can't wait to download Sims 3 into my laptop it's gona be awesome. I'm off to play god now my lovelies. bye bye. :)

Amelia OUT...

Stressed

I haven't updated this in forever, so I'm going to fill you in as much as possible.

I've been so stressed out lately that I haven't even been to school or out of my room for that matter. I closed the doors on everyone, until yesterday when I exploded into a thing of tears. I don't like crying in front of people cause I only cry more so I went and found a nice little corner to cry my heart out....only to have the principle and my fifth period teacher find me. They asked me what was wrong and I told them to just leave me alone. They wouldn't leave and I started to freak out even more and since they weren't leaving I kept crying.... So long story short I cried for a good three hours then went home to eat popcorn and watch south park and shows about space. Cheered me up to yell "like your mom" "like a sir" and No harry don't trust snape he's a perv" at the screen... thank god no one else was home at the time. Then after that my ex came to see how I was doing and if I was going to be ok(so sweet).

Today I saw one of my favorite school cats Little Lady. I didn't see Big Daddy anywhere, he must be sleeping or something. I bought three Faygo and a bag of Takis (my version of feel good food). I hope today goes better then yesterday.

Amelia Out...

Valentines...

Dear Valentines Day,
I hate today. Everyone has some one and its just annoying. I intend to have a rampage on everyone today. But maybe just maybe I will be happy and not get angry with the world, IF someone gives me a back message. I will try not to ruin everyones day but I swear I will go crazy by the end of the day. Mark my words.
Oh and Jacob has a gf who WAS my friend who told me it would be a good match. He told me that the only reason he kissed me at his b-day party was cause he felt sorry for me...way to break to me that I'm nothing you jerk... I don't think I will look at men the same after this I have no trust in men now. One man to ruin it for all. I can't take Valentines Day. I should have just stayed home...

Amelia out...

What I think on Valentines

I hate you all! I hate fucking living! I just want to fucking drop dead! Some one fucking shot me in the head! Slice my fucking wrists don't make me beg! Just fucking kill me before I blow off my own fucking head myself! I hate this pity you rain down upon me! Just put me out of my fucking misery! That's how you can show me that you care... I hate valentines day.

Amelia OUT...

No School

OK so today I am not in school because I fell like sh*t and I don't want to risk stabbing a fellow student with a sharp pointy object... I have finally convinced my mum to buy me a dress and stuff for Prom it's going to be awesome!! I can't wait. I'm so excited I feel like I going to explode if I have to wait any longer.... Sad thing is I have no one to go with. I'm still thinking about going alone if no one asks me, which will be great............... I'm going to go play in the mud like a child now tata and have a wonderful day in school or at work or where ever you are.

Amelia OUT...

Alone

For lack of better words I'm gona be alone on Valentines Day. Am I worried, no not really. I was but now I'm not. Why? I was reading this article in a magizine about a girl who went to prom alone and she said "it was the best time of my life I didn't have to worry about keeping my date company or if they were uncomfortable and I met a really cute guy who also went alone, so the night was a blast". I don't beleive I stumbled across that by accident. So long story short if no one asks me I will go alone with my bestie friend Lilly, I have to help her into her dress anyways. hehehehe.

Like A Sir

Ok so last night me and my friend Lilly were playing Sims 3 and Her Sim became a vampire and she said "Like a sir"
We spent the rest of the night thinking of things people can do "Like A Sir". There are ends less things to do

Things You Need
1) A Top Hat.
2) A Suit.
3) A Monecule.

Now go and be "Like A Sir"!

Amelia Out.

None

I won't lie this weekend was AMAZING  loved it. Me, Jacob, and the gang basically lived in Jacobs' living room. When I showed up Today I got asked by everyone:

 1)What did you do for three days??
We sat around watching movies and playing xbox.
 2)What did you survive on??
We survived on Zebra Cakes, Water, Soda, Chips, and Pizza.
 3)Do you plan on going over next weekend??
As much as I would love too, I can't because my chores have pilled p to where if they don't get done this weekend I won't ever get them done.
4)Did anything special happen??
YES! Something did. Jacob kissed me! It was the most awesome kiss I've ever had.
Sad thing was I couldn't just smile and nod. I've been smiling for the whole day. I can't stop thinking about it.

Birthday!

This weekend is Jacobs birthday YAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACOB!! Hope you like your gifts and all that jazz. You are awesome yet sometimes annoying. Hahahaha.  Drinks all around!! Let's party!!!

Lost

Aw hile back I lost a small brass heart locket. After weeks of looking for it I gave up on finding it believing that it was lost forever. This weekend I found Jacob had it. He had been keeping it in a glass box. He did not know that I saw it. He hid the box but I have my locket. i don't think he knows that I do. I will tell him today. Wish me luck

Great!

Faygo one of the most delicious drinks ever and Takis the most amazing chips ever. today Is going to be okay......... Correction today is going to be great Jacob asked me to hang out with him today *jumping up and down like an excited puppy* YAY This is going to be so much fun I can't wait!

ZERO

Today I'm running on three hours of sleep and no food. I feel like a dead zombie. So far I've yelled at two people for hugging me and I got smart with my crush...I just pray to any higher power out there that one of my teachers let me crash out. The last time I was running low on sleep and food  I screamed at everyone the went to the nurse told her I felt a panic attack coming on to me, laid down in her office, cried and passed out. although today may go well I feel a childish fit brewing. Wish me luck.

Storm

I love the rain. and the wind. I love to stand out on my porch, arms spread wide, soaking up the natural rain. I love thte smell of rain, like fresh dirt. I love the feel of the rain being swayed to and fro by the wind. I wonder what it'd be like to be in a jungle when it rains. All the scents and sounds. (breathy sigh)  If only if only

One Uping

Yesterday after school I went with my bff Lilly to look at Prom dresses. My mind didn't get that it was supposed to be a mother daughter thing, and when I told my mom she, more or less, blew up on me. After that we didn't speak at all I didn't even eat I was so upset. But this morning she apologized to me (and I had worked all morning on an I'm Sorry letter too). Then she said that I should and would one up my bff Lilly. Somewhere deep inside I really want to one up everybody. I want an old fashioned ball gown. But my mom want me to wear something form-fitting. I want a BPD (boy-proof-dress) I like making things hard on them. I tried telling this to my mom and she doesn't really care as long as I one up all my friends, but mostly Lilly, I can tell by how her voice pitches slightly.

And Prom is in March!!

BFF's BF

okay so right now my bff's bf is helping my bff with her math homework and im eating her gobstoppers mmmmmmm yummy... their so cute i think I want to vomit... jk lol jk thats mean. YAY I GET TO GO DRESS SHOPPING WITH MY BFF/SISTER AND HER BF CAN'T SO IN YOUR FACE DEVON!!!!!!!

Boy Drama.

The title says it all. But for a few of you I will explain why. I have liked two juggalos since I was sixteen. I have to go to school with both of them. The blond one is named Shane and the brunette is named Jacob. They are both friends. They're together almost all the time. If I buy Faygo for one the other ends up with half of it. I want to date Jacob, but I don't think he likes me the way I like him. I don't know what to do. When I see him my bold tomboy runs and hides and my cute shy girly sides comes out to say hi. But recently I've been approached by another juggalo named Cory, who wants to date me. My feelings for Cory aren't as strong as they are for Jacob.
When Jacob saw Cory talking to me after school (and I know he saw because he was standing five feet away talking loudly with his friends) he came over and said hi to me, glared (literally glared) and handed me his Peach Faygo. He NEVER EVER gives or shares his Peach Faygo with anyone besides Shane. So that was a shock to me, as well as everyone around us. My girly girl was impressed and my tomboy didn't bat an eyelash. So now my head is spinning , not just cause of the heat but because I have two juggalos wanting my attention. Jacob even called me last night. We talked for a whole hour. I found out that we have all the same cd's. And we like the same artists too. So I'm asking you not as a young lette but as a girl in need of serious advice... What do I do???

Sneaky Homework

I hate it. I hate it with all of my being. If I had a choice I'd burn it and dump the ashes on my teachers heads. But I don't feel like it at this time. Last night as I rummaged threw the great pile of papers I found my Health homework. It was focused on money, so I pulled it out and did it with a smile. Then I got so into it I almost forgot to feed my llama and my horses. It was a good thing that I did go to feed them instead of finishing my homework cause my sneaky llama (I call him Patches) was trying to escape again. So homework can be a bad thing sometimes.

Bullies

I hated it when people bullied me in middle school and I hate it with a passion now. yesterday during lunch I had this one guy asked me to hold his backpack while he went and talk to his friends about something so I said sure what could it hurt but my curiosity got the better of me and I asked if I could look through it. He said "yeah I don't care" and went back to talking to his friends. So I'm going through it and he looks at me watching me rummage through the pictures of the tattoos he had done. then he got really mad at me for I don't know what reason and started to yell at me. (I had recently gotten out of an abusive relationship) I gave back his backpack, then when everyone was gone I crawled under a table and cried for two hours. No one even know where I was except me friend Lilly. When she found me and asked what happened all I could say was "I just want to go home. I hate it here. please take me home. I want to leave and never come back. I hate this place" She called my mom and then took me to the office and waited with me till my mom came.

Blogging

Blogs. Sweet quiet places to rant.

In The Way

I feel like I'm going to explode into a huge death cloud of purple and green glitter. School is so stressful now days. F*cking preps always in my way walking really slow like they have all the time in the world! Move faster before I push you down and tread all over your face!!! It drives me crazy when people do that not just the preps. Something just as annoying is when people stand in a huge group right in the doorway It makes me want to scream and beat them about the head with a brick. Because not only are you late when the bell rings but you have to wait for all of them to go inside before you. So get out of the way when you see me because I will not be able to stop my binder or any said object in my hand flying at your face when I'm pissed off from having a bad day.

The Longest Weekend Ever

Technically it wasn't the longest weekend ever but it felt that way when my boyfriend told me he wanted to be with me forever. forever is a very long time and I'm the only girl he has actuactually dated (cory if you read this no offense). So yeah scared the hell out of me. But the massage thaat followed was Amazing I loved it. Now only if every guy could do that every women would be happy with a massage after a long hard day at work. I have afeeling that Valentines Day is going to cause some heart break and drama for me. I don't know what it is yet but I keep having theses nighmares where I'm about to die (I die in multiple ways) and it's on Valentines Day ( I know this because there is a huge banner that reads: HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! in the background. So yeah I have Valentines is gona suck for me and I'm going to fill the gaping hole in my heart with chocolate and whatever else is available hopefully Faygo because it's so good and it makes me happy. Feburary is gona suck.

Surprises

Last night at around 9:30 pm my boyfriend calls me and says he has a surprise for me and that he's not telling me. My cat curiosity kicked in and I ask for a hint.. He wouldn't give me one that that's the point of a surprise. But after thirty minutes of me saying please into the phone and him saying no, he said that I'd know what it is on Valentines Day. I hope it's a box of chocolate. I told him all I really wanted was him and his reply was: "You'll have me always." Then he cursed into the phone and I laughed and asked what happened, only to find out that he couldn't talk much longer cause he had to go to bed. The horrible/sweet is that I fell asleep while he was talking to me and woke up with the phone stuck to my face and a text that said goodnight sweetheart. I can't wait to see my surprise I'm so giddy I think I'm going to explode into a thing of purple and green glitter! Plus today we're going on our first double date I'm so happy I think I will explode.

Silence

I hate when people give you the silent treatment and they aren't even mad at you. Then when you get mad and do it they get mad at you and tell you to stop acting like a child.
Today my own mother is giving me the silent treartment, because I told her that I was bi. If you asked me I would tell you she's a b*itch, but almost everyone does at some point and time for one thing or another. The silence is peaceful for the moment, because I can stay in my room and she won't be calling for me every five minutes knowing well-enough that I'm trying to read a book. She broke her phone too, so she may be mad about that but she says its my fault...I don't see how but I'm not going to let her blame it on me. She is acting like a child and its getting on my nerves. I rarely give people the silent treatment. It's mostly teachers and principles who can't get me to talk. so I'm going to enjoy the sweet silence while it lasts and read to my hearts content.

Report Cards

I hate seeing my grades it drives me nuts when some else in the class comes up to you, takes a look at your report cards and says "iI made a better grade then you" and runs off to tell every your grade. Its a major pet peeve of mine. What if you didn't want other people to know what your grade was? What if it just didin't matter who say your grade? They could just ask you instead of just looking over your shoulder or  taking it off your desk. I don't even look at mine anymore. It goes staight to my backpack or my pocket to sit and wait for me to read it. Another thing I hate is when a really smart prep acts really stupid when they make the best grades in the class. It makes me want to dropkick them, or smack they with a book and yell " STOP ACTING STUPID YOUR A GENIUS!!!" But that would be mean and rude so I'm going to put up with it for now.

Hate

I can come up with a lot of things to "hate" or dislike but do I care, no. If I say that I hate you then obviously did something to cause that. I won't just stand there and go "I hate you" and walk away without telling you why I'd give you a reason and then I wouldn't talk to you for the longest time. I do the same thing with my mom, if she's badmouthing my friends i will simply go "mom will you please stop I hate when you talk bad about my friends it makes me look bad" then I will go into my room where I will stay till I need food or to use the bathroom.

The thing I hate the most is school.

Boys

Why do boys have to be so... so tempting and bloody annoying! I'm in a bot crisis right now as I write this. I have three boys who want me yet I have a boyfriend. I don't get to see him except on the weekends and the other three boys just drive me crazy cause i have to see them at school on the week days I hate them. I love games! So does my boyfriend so every time I tell him to get me a sandwich in a demanding tone he does the same thing back.  Then he gets up and does it anyways and makes a sandwich for himself as well... i like guys in books they are much more predictable then this age of boys. And yes all males of this generation are boys, unless they can make me think differently then maybe I will change my label and opinion of them... but I rather doubt it. There only three people I Trust in this world

1) Cory (my bf).

2) Devon (my sisters bf).

and

3) Joey (my bf's brother).

Uncaring.

So today I'm stuck at my friends house. Reason: my mom can't come get my cause she let my brother use the car. Which means when I have to go to school I wont be going I'll be stuck at my friends house. And when I asked my brother to come get me he said "It's not my fault your at your friends house with no way home. Why do you walk home" and proceeded to hang up. I called my mom and told her and she said "I don't care" I then hung up on her. my family is so uncaring of the oldest girl.This mom is a great example of why you should have bought me a car!